I've just sent in a volunteering application to Mercy Malaysia, however instead of waiting for them, I think I am going to go ahead with yaya to the orphanages. I love children, and I dont need big organisations like Mercy to meet the little children that I want to help. Start small right? then maybe in the not so distant future, I'd open up my own charity foundation. not such a bad idea huh? Anyways, what I am trying to tell you guys is that it does not matter how big or how small the things you do and give to others, what matters is that you do it with the utmost sincerity and care for the people you want to help. Just a few examples to get you started, reading books to the kids, telling stories or jokes, sing to them, bring colouring book or toys, oh and water baloon fights is also fun!

After the death of Michael jackson, do we now know how much he has given back to the society. Everything that he has done for the poor children in this world has finally come out in the open. There's probably more that we don't know. For instance, my mother told me a story about MJ from her friend. Her friend was one of the organisers of MJ's concert in Kuala Lumpur in 1996. MJ once called him and asked him if there were any orphanages around the area where he could go visit. Once that was arranged, he went to ToysRus in OU (which was officially reported) and bought a bunch of stuff there for the kids. The fact that he did not flaunt to people the charities he has done makes it all the more sincere and REAL. Not like all the angelina jolie UN facade. It probably is to make up for her being a serial husband stealer. haha ok fine, that's probably too harsh. i cant deny the fact that she has done good here and there, increasing awareness around the globe. Maybe she's sincere in doing it but to put yourself in the centre of attention all the time? cmooon, dont tell me that part of it isn't for "good" publicity!  Despite the fact that im not a believer of selfless acts, I find the publicity a tadtoo much. There is NOT one selfless act that a person can do in his/her lifetime. Don't tell me that when you do a good deed or something of that sort, you never feel a tiny weeny bit satisfied with yourself? my point exactly. we are after all, just human beings. BUT to what extent does our self-satisfaction take control of our actions? it differs with everybody and that counts!

(maybe jumping in to take a bullet for someone can be counted as a selfless act? naaaah.. u'd be dead. it doesnt count! ANY THOUGHTS on the matter?)

so yes, Michael Jackson. I hope to give back to the world with the little things I can do here and there hopefully. He's an inspiration to us all, he gave back in ways he did, we should do too in our own little ways. Getting my degree first is my aim right now. Later in life, maybe who knows.. Things change, Wants change, People change. I just pray that this part of me won't. I hope that when I study abroad I won't turn into a selfish bitch who is sucked into the evil corporate money-making world and conform completely to what society expects of her.

Turning back to the lighter but significant nonetheless, things in life. I need to start going for art classes. but I dont have the time at all! AT ALL! sigh. I have skills I do!!! Seriously, I may seem like I don't, but I do. I just need to know what they are. HAHA or better yet, stick to one thing long enough to be good at it. I have the tendency to leave things unfinished which is very very bad, I know. I get bored easily. THAT is my problem. I have no focus. well when it comes to this there isnt. Haih, oh well, why be like other people when I can be my own self right? Maybe this is just me being ME. Life's a canvas and we should all be able to colour it the way we want to. I don't have to be like any of you. I'm my own person and if I wanna leave thing unfinished then so be it. It doesnt mean in any way that you are any better than me. Looking on the bright side, atleast I've tried!!!! haha

I've been swearing alot lately, probably from all the couch-potato-ing ive been doing lately watching Entourage. Finished 5 whole seasons and I can hardly wait for the new one. i know i know, its more of a guy's show (i.e.sex, cars, chicks n pot) but to hell with it. I LOVE IT!

Oh btw,to see what I've been doing lately, you guys can checkout my facebook album at http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=108089&id=561371313